The Greatest Freedom of All

Never say anything about yourself you do not want to come true.
- Brian Tracy

 

I am doing well.

I am back in the space of wanting to crawl into a hole

and create...

I've been baking while music plays softly in the background...

But I need more...

During this break, I will have free time.

Time to think. Create. Appreciate. Read.

Time to enjoy romance. Time to be in my twenties.

Time to be just Shelby.

Who happens to love and be with Mike.

I am happy to have a moment to reflect on Christ.

Friendship. Family. Food. Love. Fashion. Passion. Faith.

 

I need this time...

Because as much as I feel like I am gaining so much

Perspective, purpose of life, and...fulfillment
I also feel like I'm slipping...
Slightly.

Someone told me the other day that I try to be
"Everything for too many people..."
I get it.
I get it completely.
One day, I will not be able to take a break from being mommy,
Caregiver, responsible adult...
But I need to escape now...
I need to be selfish with my
Time, my energy, my life, my hubby

I need to be completely free
Free to sleep until noon
Free to watch movies all afternoon
Free to walk the streets of New York
Free to experiment with my look
Free to be crabby
Free to BE OUT ALL NIGHT...
Kiss on the couch
Fall asleep in the living room
Wear "that" outfit.
Freedom to DO NOTHING.
No Ms. Steel...
Shelby

I wanna feel that feeling again...
STRINGLESS.
The greatest freedom of all...

 

You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.
- The Buddha